Result comes with hardworks.

OMG OMG

Guess what?

We, the dancing group of SMK Tropicana got

ONE OF THE BEST PERFORMANCES!!

Hahahaha!! Damn freaking happy and excited now, even though the competition has already passed one day xD. OKOK, I shall start from the beginning of the day! Here it goes~

Well, as I said just now, I took part in yesterday's dancing competition which held at KL Tian Hou Gong. Early in the morning, shower, wear contact lens, dress up and quickly went to school to gather. Ivy gave us our T-Shirt which represents that we are the dancing group of SMK Tropicana. Then, chit-chat-ed, took photos and went into the van and car, we were on our way to our destination! About half an hour time, we finally reached!

Then, we did our rehearsal and went down to the hall and started practising among ourselves. Our assistant coach, Su Xuan (Sorry, I don't know how to spell her English name) was so pissed off because of our attitudes and also our performance on rehearsal just now, therefore, she scolded us. Everyone had finally WAKE UP. Everyone started to practice properly, remembered our steps clearer and most importantly, started to behaved ourselves.

Next, about 4pm, all of us went to our rest room to rest, change into our performing attire and also put MAKE UP! Holy crap.. This was my first ever time to put make up man.. Damn geli and disgusting. LOL. And I wonder how girls can tahan such a heavy make up as it made me feel so damn uncomfortable. Well, who cares la. We need to sacrifice a bit so that we won't look so dead and pale on the stage later. HAHA. About 6pm, we practiced a while in the rest room and went to makan dinner, CHICKEN RICE, which was full of ajinamoto. LOL. I'm so lazy to write so detail already la, so I'll just jump to the starting of the competition k? LOL

Okok! Actually, this competition is seperated into two different categories. One is the primary school, which had 21 groups; the another one is the secondary school, which had only 10 groups. Primary compete with primary and same goes to secondary, they compete among themselves. I heard my friends, Li Kuan, Kai Ting, Yen Nee and Yip Fong said that the primary schools' performances weren't that interesting and what's even worse, it almost made Yip Fong fell asleep. LOL. THENNNN, about 9.30pm, the secondary schools finally can perform! Our school was the 7th group to perform. And surprisingly, I wasn't that nervous when it was about our time to start perform. So, when it was our turn to perform, all of us just dance like there's no tomorrow~~ Paula Abdul.. LOL! NOLA, we just did our best and danced like what we did during our practices as what Cik Tiong said, we come for competition is not to win prizes, but to gain more experiences.

Well well well, after the 10 groups finished performing. THE TIME HAS COME! THE RESULT OF THE NIGHT!! Actually, for secondary schools category, there is no first place, second place or even third place. They just choose the 5 best performances and 3 more prizes which I didn't really know. lol. Sooo.. The emcee called out 3 groups out already, to get the prizes for the best performance, all of us were so nervous cause the emcee has not called out our group yet! LOL. THENNNNNN, emcee said "Next, the 4th school who got the best performance issssss...... SMK TROPICANA!!!!!!" This is the funny one. LOL. When all of us heard our school's name, what we did was not scream and shout out loud like what the other groups did. What we did was STUNNED for a second first, then we only SCREAM OUT LOUD!!! LOL.. I also don't know why we stunned, maybe we were too shocked, I guess? xD. Soooo, all of us quickly went up to the stage + scream like sakai to get our prize. LOL!!! Then, took quite a number of pictures and I think our pictures will appear in the newspaper. WOOHOOO!! SO damn freaking excited! =D

After that, went home together with Yip Fong, Yen Nee, Li Kuan and Kai Ting by my father's Avanza. Thanks for coming to support me and Thomas especially my dad and my mom. Thanks for all your supports all this while. Fetch me to school every Monday night just to come for practices then need to fetch me back. Reached home, mom cooked some food and boil some Liong Cha for me to drink. And sometimes even help me to massage. Thanks a lot! I love you, mom and dad! And also my other friends, Zo Ee, Jia Jun etc etc. For supporting me mentally! Even though you weren't there last night, but still, I thank you for all your messages! Thanks a lot!

If I got time, I will update the photos soon, very very soon! Byebyela~~

Kisses on boys?

I bet everyone knows I Kissed A Girl by Katy Perry, right?



How about a little changes into..

Cobra Starship's I Kissed A Boy??

I'm sorry if the video is a bit pervert-ed. LOL.

And here are the lyrics for this song! =D

Yo check it out I’ve got a plan

Here’s my intention

The frat boys in the club are lame

Let’s start an altercation

It’s just what I’m used to

Just want to fuck shit up

I’ve got my whole damn crew

Come on what you gonna do

I kissed a boy and they liked it

Got all the honeys in the club excited

I kissed a boy just to start shit

That homeboy was not about it

I know it’s wrong, but I don’t mind

I’m gonna start shit tonight

I kissed a boy just to start shit

They just loved it

Now you don’t even know my name

It doesn’t matter

Don’t even front, you’ve got no game

You’re just a sucker

So what now, I clowned you

And I’m stealing your girl too

She wants a secure dude

And that’s just not you

I kissed a boy and they liked it

Got all the honeys in the club excited

I kissed a boy just to start shit

That homeboy was not about it

I know it’s wrong, but I don’t mind

I’m gonna start shit tonight

I kissed a boy just to start shit

They just loved it

Me and my bros that’s how we roll

You never know how far we’ll go

I’ll grab some chump that I don’t know

And plant one right on him

You’re only here for our amusement

I kissed a boy and they liked it

Got all the honeys in the club excited

I kissed a boy just to start shit

That homeboy was not about it

I know it’s wrong, but I don’t mind

I’m gonna start shit tonight

I kissed a boy just to start shit

They just loved it

No, you can't read my poker face.

A Daughtry's version of POKER FACE! =DD



Carolynn stole my idea of posting this video! ISH! xD

Hold on, is what I'm doing.

HEY, THE WORLD! Me and my father finally 和好如初! Yalo, father and son, where got 隔夜仇wan? xD And guess what? We were actually in the car, talking about the celebrities who take drugs because Flyfm was 播-ing Michael Jackson's You Are Not Alone. Do you know how he died? The newspaper is already stated that he died because of taking too much of drugs. How sad. A person who has a lot of pontentials and his life is just ruined by drugs. Talk talk talk, we suddenly talked about whole bunch of celebrities who take drugs: Lindsay Lohan, Amy Winehouse, Paris Hilton, Britney Spears and a lot more. And I said luckily Kelly Clarkson does not take drug then guess what my father said? LOL. He said "Ya, actually she's very discipline. She doesn't care about fame because she loves music. And that is why her songs are nice, isn't it?". "OF COURSE!!", I replied. XDXD

I think I really got a lot of 人缘. xD. Just now, someone called me and told me about his/her secrets and I was really shocked that he/she told me about all these. Me and him/her are not really that close, and yet, he/she told me about his/her privacy. Not only him/her, someone else has already told me his/her secrets and he/she also really not that close with me, though. XDXD. And sorry la.. For the "he, she, him, her, his". You know that's their privacy right? So I really not that 方便to voice out their names here, hehe. Then then, both of them were actually telling me the exactly same thing, which was "EH! You are the only one who knows about this. So I beg you please don't tell anyone, ANYONE AT ALL, if not...bla bla bla". =.= Keeping secrets from so many different people is so hard leh.. So much pressures you know? What if I mix up all the secrets? XDXD. But I guess that won't happen la. LOL. And yeah, I will keep my promise not to tell anyone, so don't worry ya! xD

Well, I guess I got to sleep right now, since I woke up damn early today, which was 10.30am. XD And I'm sorry for those Chinese words cause I don't really know how to describe it in English. For those bananas and angmo kia, I'm sorrieee. XD

I guess I was wrong.

To someone who really cares for me,

I really thank you for being there for me, even though we just knew each other for less than one year. I'm okay now, really and seriously. Thanks for reading my blog every single day, I guess? xD

I know I shouldn't be sad or angry about this, I just don't know why I was so frustrated last night. Maybe what you said is right, I was thinking that he was trying to restrict me. And yeah, you're right, I should stay at home and increase some productivity such as Moral Folio. xD

Glad to have a great friend like you. Thanks, Carolynn. =)

Tomorrow'll be fine? Bullshit.

I don't know why now I'm so freaking upset. Why am I feeling sad for this? Why am I feeling angry for this? All he does is just protecting me but why do I feel angry about it? Can someone give me the reason? I just can't figure it out.. I don't understand why..

You wanna piss of me?

I'm very sorry for not been blogging for about a week. I just didn't have the mood, seriously. Exams, family, friends, etc, just clashed onto me one by one. So, don't blame me for not been blogging for so many days. I didn't mean to do that. =)

I don't understand why are these certain people who always behave in such a way. You are the one who started the conversation and YOU are the one who always ended up not replying me. If it's one or two times, it is fine to me but, this thing happens always! Whenever I don't reply you, you always blame me for that and you said that I ALWAYS don't reply you. But in my memory, I've been replying your messages for don't know how many thousands of times already but still, you said such thing to me. OK FINE. Whenever I have something to tell or share about, you don't seem to give a damn on that particular message. Is it very hard just to move your thumbs and press on the buttons? If you think that it is damn freaking difficult to do that, okay, I will keep my bloody mouth shut from this very moment. And whenever you sms me, I won't be that stupid anymore and reply every single message that you sent to me, I WON'T, unless it is necessary. Don't blame me if I message other people instead of you cause you are the one who asked for it. Remember, I said CERTAIN PEOPLE, not just only one person.

Today, when I was on my way back from my hometown, dad suddenly told me not to go anywhere including pasar malam which I've already planned to visit, to buy something for my school's Chinese Society. What the hell? A few days ago I asked you and you agreed but now, you won't allow me. That day were you just trying to ignore me since you were watching your super duper interesting football match? I've told all my friends that you are going to fetch them to the pasar malam and I've promised to them cause YOU promised me that you are bringing us go, but how it ended up? "Jaysern, I think you better don't go la, there are a lot of people over there." What the heck? I know. I know you worry about me. I know you don't want me to take the risk of having H1N1. I know. But if you don't let, why don't you just tell me a few days ago when I asked you? Me and my friends planned well well all these things already and now you expect me to tell them that, "Eh, sorry ah, I cannot go liao cause dad doesn't really allow and since I'm not going already, you all go yourself la.", like that ah? Come on la and please la, stop treating me like a 3-years old boy. Your son has already grown up, he is 16 now. It's time for you to let this son go and let him make his own mistakes so that he could learn his lessons!

Today everything is just pissing me off, even my computer, lag here lag there. ZZZ.. I no mood to write already so that's all for today.

Burn my desires.

I tell you. WEARING A PAIR OF CONTACT LENSES ISN'T EASY AT ALL! Don't believe? Go and have a try and you will know how HARD it is to put just one lens into your eye. It took me about half an hour to put only ONE lens into my eye. How about two lenses then? ONE HOUR LA! =.= Took sibeh long just to put two lenses into my eyes. Zzz..

Well, as I said on my previous post, I skipped school today. Woke up quite late, around 12pm. =P. When I was sleeping, Zo Ee sms-ed me, asking me whether I want to go to school or not for Chinese class and I ignored that message since I wanted to continue sleeping. LOL. Then she called me at 11.30pm+ and asked again and I gave her an answer which was a no. xD. Then continued sleep back until I couldn't sleep any longer so, I finally woke up! =D

The first ever thing I did after waking up was TO WATCH LITTLE NYONYA! LOL. Of course I watched it after I brushed my teeth and had my breakfast la. I'm not that dirty okay? xD. Watched for about 2 episodes then dad brought me makan lunch and I took my contact lens! Reached home, continue watching my drama. Seriously, this drama is very very nice, very outstanding at the same time too =). Even my mom is addicted to it. I tell you ah, just now while I was writing my blog, she suddenly came in and asked me off the remote thingy cause she doesn't know how to off it. Then, I went in her room and wanted to help her to off it. Then, the screen was showing some parts of the next episode. Then my mom suddenly stopped me from off-ing the remote thingy and she was like, "No no no! Don't off it! This episode is very interesting!". So I gave her a ==' look. LOL. Random punya emak. xD

Oh Oh! I've forgotten my story. Alright alright, come back to me! xD. Well, after watching the drama, slept again and woke up and watched again. Basicly, today I just spent my day in watching that drama. LOL. I won't get to watch it when exam arrives la.. So just let me be okay? I will start to study for the coming exam on tomorrow, that's my promise. =)

Turn my lows to high.

Just cut + straighten my hair! LOL. Hope that it doesn't look weird. =P. My mom said that it looks ugly but I would not give a damn on what she said cause I won't be affected by her words! =D It looks kinda nice to me, I guess? Haha. *It means my mom has no taste at all.*

Hmm. Today woke up kinda late as I can feel that it was going to rain and it really made me feel lazy to get up from my bed. But because I already received a warning letter from the school, saying that I ponteng-ed school for 10 days from March until July, so I didn't dare not to come to school already. xD. So quickly get my hell up from the bed + shower and had my breakfast then went to school with my bro's Jay Chou car. The moment I stepped into my class, I was like, "WOW!". LOL. It was so warm and hot compared to my room. Zzz.. So, went emo at the corridor there as usual and chit chat-ed with Carolynn and Bryan. They both were going for some thingy at HELP college with Izzat so, I won't be seeing them in the school after 8.30am. xD

Then went ping pong room and played ping pong, obviously, with Jason Ng and Thomas. Zo Ee, Kai Ting, Mun Sin and Cheng Shye suddenly appeared out of nowhere at the ping pong room and started chit chating with us. Then, went back class after the first 2 periods of PJK. The moment I reached the class and looked at the blackboard, I was like, "WHAT THE *TUT*!?!?!". Guess what was written on the blackboard? "No Chemistry, Sejarah and PJK teachers, 5 free periods". What the.. 5 free periods out of 8 periods, means today we only have 3 periods which had teachers. ZZZZ.. Slept at the free periods as usual until I couldn't tahan anymore, so went to koperasi earlier than usual time with Thomas, Chun Giap and Yan Yee. Sien la inside there, didn't even know what we were doing. Chit chating and telling Thomas about his Twilight stories and I can say that he doesn't need to read that novel anymore cause I've already told him the whole story. =.= Then, Jia Jun came down, asking me and Thomas to go back to class to discuss the Chinese Camp thingy. After discussing, went back to koperasi again and started selling maggie mee and drinks.

After that, stayed at koperasi for one period cause teacher absent today. Went back to class after that and had our 2 periods of Maths and one period of BM. Then, went to Thomas' house instead of going back home cause I wanted to cut my hair. Walau, now I know how girls suffer when they are doing their hair. It only took me for about 2-3 hours to do my hair but some people they used up about 6 hours to do that. I wonder how they can tahan. =.= Then, Yong An fetch me back by his motorbike and I quickly shower then went sleeping. Woke up at 7pm+ and since I had nothing better to do, so I went to watch Little Nyonya. It was very touching and I can tell you that this is the first ever drama which made me cry. Darn it! I've never cried for any movies or dramas before this but except this. Holy crap.. I can't believe that I'm such an emotional person. XD

Currently I'm listenning to Kelly Clarkson's songs and teaching my sister to do her homework. Ohya! And my eldest sister has already gave birth to a little boy, named Darren Foo instead of Javen Foo. xD Well, I really like these two names, so unusual and nice. =D. And my dad gave me a job which is to think of my little nephew's chinese name. Oh god, that's really hard and you wouldn't know how hard to think of a good name until you have your own child. LOL.

Tomorrow most of the 4A students are not coming to school. PONTENG TOGETHER!! Actually not really la, cause Nils' driver and his father's workers kena H1N1 already, so we are just taking the precautions. LOL!! So, to my dearest 4A classmates, if you see this right now, don't forget not to come to school on tomorrow! XDXD. Alright, I have to continue with my Little Nyonya now so, goodbyeeeeeee~

Forever was all that I heard.

Hey people! Seems like I'm getting lazier and lazier to blog. xD. I don't know why la, last time I used to siao-kan blog, mana tau now.. =P

Alright, today in school, had BM in the first period. Did some komsas and passed up to Pn. Zurani right after her period. Then had free periods for Siviks and Physics. Boring as usual. Seems like our best damn school, SMK Tropicana, always have some teachers absent everyday. Monday, had 6 free periods out of 10 periods; Tuesday, 2 free periods; today, 3 free periods. What a school we have huh? Well, who cares. As long as I get to sleep in the class + stuck my ears with my earphones! =D

Then went canteen. Saw Chun Ho and he told me that there were some stalls at Dewan Terbuka and I was like, "Har? Where? Where??", mana tau it was just right in front of me. =.= You can really imagine how blind was I. xD Then went in koperasi and saw Pn. Salmanja was selling Maggie Mee! She is a cute teacher la, who always call me "Darling", then I will reply "Yes, my dear?" xD. Woot woot, koperasi starts selling Maggie Mee already. For those who are reading my blog now, you all are always welcome to visit koperasi and also don't forget to bring RM1.80 for each cup mee! XDXD. And yes, I am promoting for koperasi! Lol.

Well, ponteng-ed at koperasi for one period after recess. It wasn't my idea to ponteng okay? I was just following Thomas. *Don't scold me, Thomas xD*. Then, went for Biology and double English, did Comprehension, sienz. The moment has finally arrived! SCHOOL'S OUT! XD Quickly went to change my clothes then went Jaya Grocer. Bought Toblerone for Stephy and also a sushi for myself! =D Then, went chit chat with Stephy and asked her something. A lot of people was curious about what we were talking about, including Thomas, Zo Ee, Cheng Shye, Yoong Hui and Chun Ho. =.= Yoong Hui and Chun Ho even more geng, hide somewhere and curi-curi listen. Hopefully they didn't hear what we were talking about if not I'm going to be killed. xD Next, went to Chinese Society room to discuss about the Mooncake Festival thingy and we decided to buy mooncakes, lollipops, chocolate, sour plum sweet and one more I forget already. LOL. Then went ping pong room and played a while then went back home.

And guess what? I won't be attending any tuition at Kasturi anymore cause my dad is worried about H1N1. He said that SK Taman Megah and SJK (C) Yuk Chai got people kena already. So, my sis won't be attending school for tomorrow and also Friday. So good.. =( Haiz.. I will miss the teachers in Kasturi, seriously. Mr. Tan, T.K Leong, Cikgu Hashim, Cikgu Daiva and also Cikgu Helen. I will miss you all, seriously, and I would like to thank you all for teaching me and guiding me in the past few months. =) After that, slept at house cause I didn't need to attend for my Biology tuition class. =P. Watched "The Little Nyonya" before I went to bed. This drama is seriously nice, and touching at the same time, too. So you guys should really check it out, you won't have any regret at all, trust me. Wait wait wait, hold on a minute! I don't think that I have much time to watch that drama already! OH SHOOT! Exam is just around the corner. Holy crap. I totally forgot about that. Haiz, as Carolynn said, mugging season is here. =(

Just came back from Kei's house cause my father sent him back and he was at my house to attend a meeting which was a very good speaker will share her very very inspiring experience. But unfortunately, the meeting has postponed to next month cause the H1N1 case. Sob. I was dying in calling Yoong Hui to inform him that the meeting has postponed and until now, I still couldn't contact him. Well, I hope that he won't wait me at his house until late at night as I promised to fetch him to the meeting place. xD.

And now I don't know what I'm doing. I'm supposed to get ready for next week's exam and I'm still stuck here doing nothing instead of taking out my damn books to study. I guess I just don't have the mood right now since the exam is just a 3-days exam. xD. Haiz, I hope I won't screw this term's exam, HOPEFULLY. Guess I don't know what to write already. See you guys tomorrow. Goodbye! =D

Be still, let it go.

Oh my god, oh my god! How long have I not been blogging since last week's Sunday? It's been a week! 7 days! 168 hours! 10080 minutes! 604800 seconds!! Try to press your calculator if you don't believe XDXD! Sorry to all my readers =P Well, I guess I didn't have the mood to blog and also lazy to blog also. xD

Okla, basicly last week was just school life, tuition, go home, sleep and eat! What else could it be? xD. Ohya! A lot of people says that I look better without my spec, is it true? I want to wear contact lens la!! But father doesn't really allow. Zzz.. Nevermind, I will get to wear very soon, very very soon.

Hmm, last night went back kampung again. Brought along my Chinese essay and also English essay to do and also one of my Twilight series, Eclipse! Yes la yes la, I know I'm slow ok? LOL. Haiz, boring as usual lor. After finishing my homeworks, stunned outside of the house and staring at the sky. There were no stars. =( Then next morning, woke up late x). Had my popo's best-est cook in the world! NO JOKE xD. Thennnnnn, went to Malacca after having our lunch at my hometown and had our very yummy dinner over there! Well, I can't tell what I had for my dinner since it was non-halal xD.

Haiz.. Nothing much to blog about la since I don't really have the mood now. OHYA OHYA!! I want to blog about this!! So random..LOL!! Oh well, just now when I was at my hometown, I followed my father to my uncle's house to pick rambutan. Pick pick pick, suddenly whole bunch of ants, or bees, I wasn't really that sure what it was cause I was in panic, came to me and bite me!! Oh my good, pain like hell. My ear, my finger and my nose were kena bitten by them!! Babi.. So dad quickly put some minyak angin on me. Now think of that incident, also feel a little bit disgusting. Yucks..

I guess that's all for today la! So I shall see ya'll tomorrow, if I have mood. LOL. Chao!

Another night has gone.

Isn't it funny that we, humans always thought that we can control our own lives? What a fool we are. We can't really predict a future or what's going to happen next, can we? I've been thinking, if we really can do that, there will be no more sadness in this world, or even wars, a world of peace is all we have. But, we are human beings. There is no such thing as the prediction of a future.

Tonight, while me and my family were enjoying ourselves in a supermarket, my dad got a phone call from someone, telling him that my dad's friend has just passed away because of his heart attack. So we quickly got ourselves back to the car and my dad sent us home.

On the way back to my house, I've been thinking, again. What if the person who got heart attack wasn't my dad's friend, but it was my dad. What would I do? What would I feel? Would I even can survive?

No one will fetch me to school every morning. No one will call me every single minute when I'm out. No one will bring me out when I'm feeling bored. No one will smile to me whenever I'm sad. No one will encourage me when I'm feeling down. No one will listen to me whenever I have problems. No one will even love me as my father..

I really can't write so much, as my tears are almost reaching the tip of my eyeballs now. Last but not least, love the one you're with and appreciate every moment when you are with them.

Moodless night.

Well, I've already stated that I'm not trying to argue or fight with you, I just want you to know and now this post is the same thing again.

The way you call your members, I don't care, as long as you got call and they got come then that's it. I was trying to say that why you scolded me and yelled at me. I was just doing my job passing the message from her to you. Do you know that when you did that to me, I was so sad and I wanted to cry, tears almost dropping from my eyeballs. And I did not write it in the previous post is because I don't want you to feel bad. Maybe you're thinking that I'm bullshiting or giving nonsense but I am not. But that is okay already, I've already forgotten.

Okay, now is the home visitation. You told me in class about it and you said that I didn't bother. Well, actually I wasn't. I remembered that I said that I can't make it cause I wasn't free at night, instead of saying, "Oh" or even ignore you. If I do really give the words or face that shows I didn't bother, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to do that.

Now about the calling part. I'm sorry that I mistaken you. I apologize through here. I will think in such a way maybe is because I didn't want you to think that I'm the type of person who don't care about meetings and home visitations because I am really not. And about the "free time", it's not always, as I said. Impossible we can't attend every meeting, right? Just that sometimes we are not free, go outstation or what so ever, takkan we can make it for those meetings right? I'm not trying to say that go meeting is useless or we can don't go for the meetings. I'm just trying to say that we can make it for those meetings, if we have time. No offence.

And about the "my attitude" part. What I did to you yesterday? I'm very sorry cause I don't really remember did I do something or say something that hurted you. Could you tell me, please? But if you don't want, it's still okay though.

Same goes to me, thanks for telling me all these.

There is a reason.

I guess you are talking about me. Well, I do not want to mention your name here cause I do not want people to bother about that.

You said why we always give ourselves a reason not to go for home visitations, meeting, cleaning, recycles and so on. You said why we can't have the initiative to make ourselves free for those activities. You will think in that way, is because you keep thinking that we HAVE TO and we MUST go for those activities. Yes, we have to go for it and we also must go for it, IF there is a free time for us to go.

If you don't have time, not even a second you have, how can you make it for those activities? I know, you must be thinking that we are the one who control the time, not we controlled by the time. Yes, it is true that we manage our timetable, it is true that we can't give an excuse which is "No time". But what if we really have no time? I'm not a busy person and obviously I have some time to attend for those activities but, that is NOT always. As you said, after school, stay back, tuition, then dying in tiredness. Next, have to do homeworks, even if I don't look like I will do, but I really did. Just that you guys didn't bother about it because all your mindsets already set that I'm the type of person who doesn't care about studies.

Ok, let's talk about that home visitations. In school, I've already told you that I can't attend that home visit because I had to do my Sejarah presentation. Well, I guess you've already forgotten that I told you. But that does not really matter anymore, IT'S OKAY. Then after school, you sms-ed me and asked me whether I can make it or not and I replied, "Maybe not, but I will try my very best to make it". I've already stated that "I WILL TRY MY VERY BEST". But still, you do not understand. OK fine. Next, I told you that I can't make it for the home visitation already cause I had to go for my dinner and if I can make it also, I will late too. You said, "It's alright." Then, I went for my dinner and you called me again whether I can make it or not, and I told you, "Yes, I can make it! But I will be late cause I have to go back my house first to finish up my Sejarah presentation". And again, you said "It's alright".

Finally, I've finished my presentation and I wanted to save it but, my computer suddenly lag and restart by itself. I was so frustrated. The first ever thing I did was not to redo my presentation, but CALLED YOU. I told you that I can't make it for home visitations already and do you still remember what you said to me? Well, I guess you've already forgotten but nevermind. You said, "Oh". That's all and the phone just hang up. You did not even ask me why I can't make it and that really showed that you already have the mindset that, "Jaysern is giving an excuse". I was so... I can't describe the feeling through here, no words could be found for this kind of feeling.

After that, you sms-ed me and asked me what happened to me. So, I told you the reason and you didn't reply me. Well, that was enough to show that you have already think that I was not going for that particular home visit, at the first place.

You said that why we can't have that initiative to do that. Let me ask you another question, why can't you just tell Suet Yee about your members for last night's HSD meet, instead of scolding and yelling at me, "WALAU!! I came back home and so tired. So sorry lor, I WAS SLEEPING". She was the one who sms-ed me to tell you about this and I've done my job passing the message from her to you and what I get from you? A scold and a yelling, instead of "Ok, I will sms her right away!"

You said that why we can't make it for the home visitation, but why can't you just made a simple call to Suet Yee? You know how to talk about some other people, but you? Did you ever ask yourself the same question? I'm here not to scold or even talk bad about you. I just want you to know that there is a reason why we can't do a particular thing. Sorry if I made you angry but if this post can make you understand, that really worths it.

That's all for my explanations.