True facts.

Firstly, I really feel very sorry for making you feeling like this, seriously. I know I have been rejecting your offers for a thousand times and now you're speechless about this and I can't help but feeling sorry to you.

I.. I'm different from you. You're grown up. You're allowed to go anywhere you like and spend your money anytime you want, but I can't. Today you asked me out and once again, I disappointed you. I am sorry. Sometimes I just want you to understand, that not every single one is as lucky as you. I have to fetch my sister back from school every weekday at 12pm+ and I have to work every weekends. So I told you I will be only free in the weekdays' evenings. And you replied, "Morning and afternoon only got student price, evening you go sing yourself la. ==". You said you already have no mood in asking me out again cause every single time I disappoint you. But do you know that you were disappointing me as well? By saying those words to me?

As I said, I'm unlike you. My family's finance just won't allow me to do anything I want. Do you think I don't want to spend money like nobody's business? Do you think that I don't want to everyday go hang out with friends? I WANT, too. But I don't have a choice, do I? Recently I have been working for 2 days and I got RM108 as the salary. You know how I finished it? Refilling my car petrol for 2 times. Just 2 times, RM108 is gone. Do you know how precious money is to me? Yesterday I went hang out with friends. When I wanted to buy my lunch to eat, I even hesitated. I lied to them that I have eaten but actually I haven't. Why? I was so hungry until I could swallow 3 plates of rice after reaching back home. Why? Why do I need to be so pathetic? Is this all I want? Really?

Secondly, my time is really all packed up. I wanted to find all my old buddies to hang out but I just had NO time. As I said, I will be only free in the evening in weekdays. So today, luckily, I had some time to hang out with my bestie. Do you know how BADLY I want to leave the house and do whatever I want?

I am not complaining about everything. I just want you to know what condition I am currently in now. I am not blaming you as well. I understand your feeling. Got rejected by me for don't know how billions of times and once again, I apologise. Maybe someday, when I get my salary then I will spend my time with you, k? This is the promise from me.