给曼谦的话，
刚刚看了你的部落格，发现现在的你生活得很好。这对我来说，应该是种安慰吧。其实自从你家里发生了一连串的事后，我都以为你会生活在痛苦中。当时的我们(HSD PTC 和PIC)都不知要如何帮助你。而我们唯能做的，就只能送题目给你和你的家人。
其实，要一个小孩来面对这种情况是非常地痛苦的。换作是我的话，我也会不知所措。但你让我认识了一个全新的你。为了要面对这种情况，你不得不坚强起来。所以，我有时候都被你给打动到了。因此，你必须振作！你还有三个弟妹需要照顾，明年还要考SPM，你一定要胜利起来！证明给先生看，你是可以的！当然，题目也一定不可忘记。
对了，还有一件事。其实我们全部都很期待能跟你见面。过了这么久，连你有没有变样都不知道了！呵呵。。而我们也很希望你能跟我们一起去Penang的。一来，我们可以叙下旧情～ 二来，我们也可以通过这次的trip 来知道更多关于Penang人的广宣流布的做法。何乐而不为呢？但如果你坚持不去的话，我们也不会勉强你的～ After Penang trip我们也可以出来找你喝茶啊～ 哈哈哈。
喔！还有！听东成说，你弟弟正开始唱题了。听了之后，我很开心！同时的，我也感到很欣慰。帮我向他说声谢谢！谢谢他可以再一次地跪在御本尊面前地唱题！题目的力量，不是你我可以衡量得到的。所以你们所祈求的东西，一定可以达成的！加油！
我好像很罗嗦酱hor？xD 好了，明天还要考Moral。再见！^^
Monday, November 29, 2010
A drink in my hand, eh?
Hey hey you you! I don't like your girlfriend! No way no way! You could find a new one! LOL. It's been a while since the last time I heard this song. xD
Anyway, I'm here to blog because I've finish memorising the 36 nilais for my Moral test tomorrow. So now I'm kinda chillex~ xD
Time flies, eh? After tomorrow, half of my subjects will be left not taken which is 5 more subjects to go. After SPM, a new life awaits me. A new challenge awaits me. A new ME! Therefore, I shall not let my guard down at this moment. Instead, I should strive to the fullest so that I'll be filled with a strong life force!
How spirit-ful I am, eh? xD
Anyway, I'm here to blog because I've finish memorising the 36 nilais for my Moral test tomorrow. So now I'm kinda chillex~ xD
Time flies, eh? After tomorrow, half of my subjects will be left not taken which is 5 more subjects to go. After SPM, a new life awaits me. A new challenge awaits me. A new ME! Therefore, I shall not let my guard down at this moment. Instead, I should strive to the fullest so that I'll be filled with a strong life force!
How spirit-ful I am, eh? xD
Friday, November 26, 2010
Goddamnit.
Oh my oh my. What have I done? Did I ACCIDENTALLY offend you? I just don't get what's the point of showing me that shit look of yours. I hate it so damn freaking much.
Did you think that I did NOT put my effort and heart onto it? YOU JUST DON'T BOTHER LOOKING AT IT. So how can I IMPRESS you? Did you look at me? Yeah, you did. Only the negative sides. I'm SICK OF IT.
Human makes mistake and you and I are NOT excluded! Did you think that you did not make any mistakes? I'm not sure what were you thinking but you always try to give yourself excuses about your mistakes. You talk all the way you want. You make it sounds like it's the TRUTH but you're actually making a fool out of yourself. You always have that loud opinion of yours but who's listening? You just make me think that you're pathetic than you already are.
If you ever try to tell me I should respect you, yes, I DO respect you from the bottom of my heart. But what will my respect do any good if you don't respect me? I NEED to be respected, too! So please. Change this attitude as it's making me sick.
Ohya. I DETEST it when YOU suddenly come in to my room and see me sitting in front of the computer and asking sarcastically, "Reading now ah??". If your intention of saying this is to make me study, sorry, it works the other way round. I don't know whether you're joking or being sarcastic but please stop it, cause I f-ing hate it. Thank you.
Did you think that I did NOT put my effort and heart onto it? YOU JUST DON'T BOTHER LOOKING AT IT. So how can I IMPRESS you? Did you look at me? Yeah, you did. Only the negative sides. I'm SICK OF IT.
Human makes mistake and you and I are NOT excluded! Did you think that you did not make any mistakes? I'm not sure what were you thinking but you always try to give yourself excuses about your mistakes. You talk all the way you want. You make it sounds like it's the TRUTH but you're actually making a fool out of yourself. You always have that loud opinion of yours but who's listening? You just make me think that you're pathetic than you already are.
If you ever try to tell me I should respect you, yes, I DO respect you from the bottom of my heart. But what will my respect do any good if you don't respect me? I NEED to be respected, too! So please. Change this attitude as it's making me sick.
Ohya. I DETEST it when YOU suddenly come in to my room and see me sitting in front of the computer and asking sarcastically, "Reading now ah??". If your intention of saying this is to make me study, sorry, it works the other way round. I don't know whether you're joking or being sarcastic but please stop it, cause I f-ing hate it. Thank you.
Regrets are regrettable.
Alright erm. About the previous post which talks about I'm not going to blog until SPM ends, well, please just kindly ignore it. =)
SPM has been easy, NOT! It was quite tough. But yeah, I've done my best and I have no regrets, SO FAR. Alright. Anyway, regrets are kinda useless when the mistake is done, right?
What's the point of feeling guilty and regret about things when the damage is already done? Will it change the outcome? Will it be able to avoid the consequences from happening? It just won't change a thing, will it? It's the fact cause it's ALREADY there. You can't help it but to watch the guilt eats away your pride no matter how unwillingly you are.
But, there are certainly things that could be done to wash the guilt away. Start making things to WORK and better once you've done the damage. It's not necessarily to do it like how a Superman does but at least you'll take the effort of changing the outcome of how things would have probably turned out. Stop feeling guilty and regret or cry like a baby cause it won't help a thing AT ALL. Instead, do your best in fixing the problems after things turn out badly. I'm sure the outcome will certainly be changed. Regrets are much regreattable than it already is.
Alright, time to hit the shower. I'll see you on the 14th of December, alright? =)
SPM has been easy, NOT! It was quite tough. But yeah, I've done my best and I have no regrets, SO FAR. Alright. Anyway, regrets are kinda useless when the mistake is done, right?
What's the point of feeling guilty and regret about things when the damage is already done? Will it change the outcome? Will it be able to avoid the consequences from happening? It just won't change a thing, will it? It's the fact cause it's ALREADY there. You can't help it but to watch the guilt eats away your pride no matter how unwillingly you are.
But, there are certainly things that could be done to wash the guilt away. Start making things to WORK and better once you've done the damage. It's not necessarily to do it like how a Superman does but at least you'll take the effort of changing the outcome of how things would have probably turned out. Stop feeling guilty and regret or cry like a baby cause it won't help a thing AT ALL. Instead, do your best in fixing the problems after things turn out badly. I'm sure the outcome will certainly be changed. Regrets are much regreattable than it already is.
Alright, time to hit the shower. I'll see you on the 14th of December, alright? =)
Monday, November 22, 2010
Stupidest Papers in Malaysia - SPM.
Hello. Just dropping by to say "Goodbye". I won't be blogging until the 14th of December as SPM is starting from tomorrow onwards. So, wish me luck. Will you? ;)
Sunday, November 21, 2010
I don't wanna walk s-o-l-o.
Why the nearer SPM is, the urge of studying becomes weaker? I seriously have no mood, not a single urge or desire of reading the books AT ALL. What should I do other than chanting? I tried forcing myself to read but it just won't work. The more I force myself, the harder it enters my brain.
Am I stressing myself out? But from my mum's words, I'm relaxing and procrastinating like nobody's business. I think she's right. I've been slacking like nothing's ever gonna happen. I keep on thinking that SPM is just a life process, it's seriously no big deal at all. I guess I'm just too over-thinking it. I'm an expert in giving myself excuses and more excuses.
SPM is just a life process and I should not OVER-stress myself out for this. Agree with this statement? =(
Am I stressing myself out? But from my mum's words, I'm relaxing and procrastinating like nobody's business. I think she's right. I've been slacking like nothing's ever gonna happen. I keep on thinking that SPM is just a life process, it's seriously no big deal at all. I guess I'm just too over-thinking it. I'm an expert in giving myself excuses and more excuses.
SPM is just a life process and I should not OVER-stress myself out for this. Agree with this statement? =(
Wednesday, November 17, 2010
Quartet of Gaga's.
This is really cool. It's a quartet version of Lady Gaga's collections performed by Vitamin String Quartet. Check them out!
Bad Romance
Telephone
Alejandro
Poker Face
Paparazzi
Paparazzi
Bad Romance
Telephone
Alejandro
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Yay!
Ehe. I am getting my own car. =D. But not a new one. My cousins sis's. It's a Proton Iswara. I know when you people hear the word "Proton", you will think that it's a lousy cheap car. xD. Yeap, I do too. But who cares? As long as I have my OWN car to drive around. =D
So now, my family has altogether 4 cars. I don't know where my father wants to park all the cars lor. =.=
So now, my family has altogether 4 cars. I don't know where my father wants to park all the cars lor. =.=
Saturday, November 13, 2010
Awesome shit.
I know you guys will definitely come and read this so here I am, telling you how I feel.
Firstly, I did not say anytime. I said BY 2pm I had to reach Zo Ee's house to watch my cartoon series. And you said we'll meet up at 12.30pm. OK fine. I reached there at 12.40pm and I THOUGHT I was late. But hell no. I was the earliest. Nevermind. I ordered my food, finished them by 1pm. You guys were not there yet. FINE, AGAIN. I waited. Until the clock struck 1.30pm, I called Zo Ee and she said you guys HAVEN'T fetch her yet. I couldn't give in any longer. So I left and told her that count me out for the study group, as I NEED to rush back home to watch my cartoon series.
Maybe you guys may think that it's just a cartoon series. WHAT'S SO BIG DEAL ABOUT IT?! But I can tell you that, no. It MEANS A LOT to me. Why the hell do you guys think that I was so free distributing each flyer to you guys? I sifat han is it? The answer is simple. BECAUSE IT MEANS A LOT TO ME, as I mentioned just now. But you guys didn't try to understand me. The flyers were left all over your tables. But I can't blame you guys, too, since you guys have nothing to do with the series. So yeah.
And you guys may think that you guys were JUST late. Do I ever need to be so angry about it? Yes. I don't need to. I'm angry NOT because of you guys were late. It's because you guys were irresponsible. In scouts, I believe that punctuality is what Sir Colin always highlights. If you guys can do it in scouts, why not applying them in your daily lives, too? And I believe that this isn't the first time you make me waited.
So yeah. This is what I feel and think. Thanks for reading. I appreciate it a lot.
Firstly, I did not say anytime. I said BY 2pm I had to reach Zo Ee's house to watch my cartoon series. And you said we'll meet up at 12.30pm. OK fine. I reached there at 12.40pm and I THOUGHT I was late. But hell no. I was the earliest. Nevermind. I ordered my food, finished them by 1pm. You guys were not there yet. FINE, AGAIN. I waited. Until the clock struck 1.30pm, I called Zo Ee and she said you guys HAVEN'T fetch her yet. I couldn't give in any longer. So I left and told her that count me out for the study group, as I NEED to rush back home to watch my cartoon series.
Maybe you guys may think that it's just a cartoon series. WHAT'S SO BIG DEAL ABOUT IT?! But I can tell you that, no. It MEANS A LOT to me. Why the hell do you guys think that I was so free distributing each flyer to you guys? I sifat han is it? The answer is simple. BECAUSE IT MEANS A LOT TO ME, as I mentioned just now. But you guys didn't try to understand me. The flyers were left all over your tables. But I can't blame you guys, too, since you guys have nothing to do with the series. So yeah.
And you guys may think that you guys were JUST late. Do I ever need to be so angry about it? Yes. I don't need to. I'm angry NOT because of you guys were late. It's because you guys were irresponsible. In scouts, I believe that punctuality is what Sir Colin always highlights. If you guys can do it in scouts, why not applying them in your daily lives, too? And I believe that this isn't the first time you make me waited.
So yeah. This is what I feel and think. Thanks for reading. I appreciate it a lot.
Friday, November 12, 2010
Make a vow.
Lately I've been thinking a lot of stuff. Stuff about friendship, mostly, and I appreciate it so much as I know I won't be able to find a better one.
Do you still remember how we met each other? It was Form 1. I heard my sis saying that there was a girl from SGM in my class and I was so shocked and excited, but I didn't know who you were. xD. Soon, I knew your existence. xD. And we were not that close yet. Then later, I found you in scouts and we were assigned to the same patrol for Maju Hike. Remember? I think that was the first time we ever properly talked as we were the only PBs from Fiery Phoenix. xD. Then, we got together so closely after that. I still remember I kept on annoying you with some Pussycat Dolls' songs throughout the whole hiking. xD. Now when I come to think of it, the friendship between us was so pure and wonderful. We told each other everything and we laughed all the way till we grow up. Isn't that just so magically wonderful?
Soon, I found another bestie. You weren't from my class and yet we were so close. Do you still remember we went to Zoo Negara together with our families? That time you were so innocent. xD. You were so curious about the songs that I sang and therefore I explained the meanings of them to you, and you were so quietly listening, unlike now. xD. And I still remember we 3 saw a bat with a long long penis and you were like, "Look! it's a freaking long penis!". But it wasn't actually a penis though. xD Then sooner, we were assigned as HSD PTCs and we hang out even more ever since.
P50. We got even closer that time. And you, with your annoying edited version of "Shut Up And Drive", it made us all so irritated by that song. But now when I come to think of it, it was actually this song that made us all smile when the memory flashes back. Then you, made me smile again when I think of the "Fei Ju Yok" pinching your arm when you were doing the "fan". It was all so perfectly fine and pure. A pure friendship we shared and that's the most memorable thing that's ever happened in my life.
Then, we became best friends ever since. And you even came to our class in Form 3 and seriously, I was really really happy for me and for you. Happy is because we these 3 besties finally got to stay in the same class, sitting next to each other and gossiping about others. And 2 of you, I have seen 2 of you cried. The first time I ever saw you cry was because of Pn Woi was about to leave us. Then you, cried in our PD Training Camp because you felt sorry for Man Qian. Do you guys still remember all these wonderful moments? The moments that we shared our laughter, our tears and our faith? We even had a small "meeting" about our attitudes after the PD Training Camp in your apartment. Remember?
And now. We've grown up. We are not as innocent as what we used to be anymore. We have our dreams, our own targets to achieve. While looking back at those moments, I believe that each of us cherish them all the time. The friendship we share has become even stronger, our bond is unbreakable now.
The reason why I'm writing this is because I want you guys to know that I appreciate it a lot, like real a lot. And I cherish them all the time. Even some of the time we might quarrel over a small tiny matter, but those were the moments that our bonds were tighten even stronger.
And I also would like to let my another dear friend to know that, friendship is what we NEED in our lives. Not a want, not a must, but a NEED. Simply ending a friendship is merely stupid. Don't overreacted when a friend is asking you to back off and leave the friendship behind. If you do so, you're the same as her. You complain that she doesn't appreciate you as much as you appreciate her and therefore you try to give up on this friendship. But have you ever noticed that you have been wasting your time and breath all this while on this particular friend if you ever give up on her? So why not might as well just leave the friendship behind in the first place since you plan to give up now? So my friend, friendship is really really important. Friends are the ones who laugh with us, cry for us, SACRIFICE for us. Best friends? I don't even need to mention about that as you already know how IMPORTANT is that. So, don't ever give up on her, k? =)
Ah. Finally I'm done typing. =D
Do you still remember how we met each other? It was Form 1. I heard my sis saying that there was a girl from SGM in my class and I was so shocked and excited, but I didn't know who you were. xD. Soon, I knew your existence. xD. And we were not that close yet. Then later, I found you in scouts and we were assigned to the same patrol for Maju Hike. Remember? I think that was the first time we ever properly talked as we were the only PBs from Fiery Phoenix. xD. Then, we got together so closely after that. I still remember I kept on annoying you with some Pussycat Dolls' songs throughout the whole hiking. xD. Now when I come to think of it, the friendship between us was so pure and wonderful. We told each other everything and we laughed all the way till we grow up. Isn't that just so magically wonderful?
Soon, I found another bestie. You weren't from my class and yet we were so close. Do you still remember we went to Zoo Negara together with our families? That time you were so innocent. xD. You were so curious about the songs that I sang and therefore I explained the meanings of them to you, and you were so quietly listening, unlike now. xD. And I still remember we 3 saw a bat with a long long penis and you were like, "Look! it's a freaking long penis!". But it wasn't actually a penis though. xD Then sooner, we were assigned as HSD PTCs and we hang out even more ever since.
P50. We got even closer that time. And you, with your annoying edited version of "Shut Up And Drive", it made us all so irritated by that song. But now when I come to think of it, it was actually this song that made us all smile when the memory flashes back. Then you, made me smile again when I think of the "Fei Ju Yok" pinching your arm when you were doing the "fan". It was all so perfectly fine and pure. A pure friendship we shared and that's the most memorable thing that's ever happened in my life.
Then, we became best friends ever since. And you even came to our class in Form 3 and seriously, I was really really happy for me and for you. Happy is because we these 3 besties finally got to stay in the same class, sitting next to each other and gossiping about others. And 2 of you, I have seen 2 of you cried. The first time I ever saw you cry was because of Pn Woi was about to leave us. Then you, cried in our PD Training Camp because you felt sorry for Man Qian. Do you guys still remember all these wonderful moments? The moments that we shared our laughter, our tears and our faith? We even had a small "meeting" about our attitudes after the PD Training Camp in your apartment. Remember?
And now. We've grown up. We are not as innocent as what we used to be anymore. We have our dreams, our own targets to achieve. While looking back at those moments, I believe that each of us cherish them all the time. The friendship we share has become even stronger, our bond is unbreakable now.
The reason why I'm writing this is because I want you guys to know that I appreciate it a lot, like real a lot. And I cherish them all the time. Even some of the time we might quarrel over a small tiny matter, but those were the moments that our bonds were tighten even stronger.
And I also would like to let my another dear friend to know that, friendship is what we NEED in our lives. Not a want, not a must, but a NEED. Simply ending a friendship is merely stupid. Don't overreacted when a friend is asking you to back off and leave the friendship behind. If you do so, you're the same as her. You complain that she doesn't appreciate you as much as you appreciate her and therefore you try to give up on this friendship. But have you ever noticed that you have been wasting your time and breath all this while on this particular friend if you ever give up on her? So why not might as well just leave the friendship behind in the first place since you plan to give up now? So my friend, friendship is really really important. Friends are the ones who laugh with us, cry for us, SACRIFICE for us. Best friends? I don't even need to mention about that as you already know how IMPORTANT is that. So, don't ever give up on her, k? =)
Ah. Finally I'm done typing. =D
Wednesday, November 10, 2010
Need your love.
当你选择拉远了距离
就这么自私做的决定
冲破天际飞去
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己
或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱
我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来
我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一段一段
我会等待
你的爱
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己
或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
无时无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己
或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以终结伤害
却不明白
我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍
不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来
我需要
我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一段一段
我会等待
我需要你的爱
像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖
找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一段一段
我会等待
我会等待
我会等待
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎成一段一段
我会等待
－需要你的爱
F.I.R.
Monday, November 8, 2010
'Cause baby you're a firework.
Yay! I am feeeeeeeeeling AWEEEEEEESOME! Why? Because I choose to be happy instead of sad!
It's true that it hurts me a lot, like real a lot. But that does not matter anymore now. Because I'm clear with my targets. All I need to focus now is SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA (SPM)! After that, I'm sure I'll be able to forget everything cause I have TONS OF PLANS AFTER SPM! First of all, PROM NIGHT! Can't wait to see my leng leng partner, Kai Ting wearing a leng leng gown. xD
After prom night, PENANG TRIP! I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TILL THAT MOMENT! I'm ABSOLUTELY going to have TONS AND LOTS OF FUN with my greatest comrades ever! Somemore can go visit their kaikan over there, which is also 10 quarter of my wish. xD. There's one wish of mine. I hope that I can travel around Malaysia and go to every single kaikan in every state! After that, I'll go backpacking like what Mable always wants us to. xD. And I'll take a picture of myself standing proudly in front of every kaikan! I'm longing for the arrival of that day!
Thirdly, my friends are planning to celebrate my birthday next year at GENTING HIGHLANDS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. THEME PARK!! Gosh. It has been about 10 YEARS since the last time I been to Genting. LOTSA LOTSA FUN AFTER SPM! =D
So yeah. That's the fun part of finishing Form 5. xD. And to all my friends/comrades. Thanks for all of your concern about the thing happened lately to me. I'm doing real fine and I promise, I will NEVER EVER be that down anymore in front of any of you. And I'm sorry if I ever let you guys worried about me, especially for those who saw me emo at Plus 8 last night. xD. So yeah. Buh bye!
It's true that it hurts me a lot, like real a lot. But that does not matter anymore now. Because I'm clear with my targets. All I need to focus now is SIJIL PELAJARAN MALAYSIA (SPM)! After that, I'm sure I'll be able to forget everything cause I have TONS OF PLANS AFTER SPM! First of all, PROM NIGHT! Can't wait to see my leng leng partner, Kai Ting wearing a leng leng gown. xD
After prom night, PENANG TRIP! I SERIOUSLY CAN'T WAIT TILL THAT MOMENT! I'm ABSOLUTELY going to have TONS AND LOTS OF FUN with my greatest comrades ever! Somemore can go visit their kaikan over there, which is also 10 quarter of my wish. xD. There's one wish of mine. I hope that I can travel around Malaysia and go to every single kaikan in every state! After that, I'll go backpacking like what Mable always wants us to. xD. And I'll take a picture of myself standing proudly in front of every kaikan! I'm longing for the arrival of that day!
Thirdly, my friends are planning to celebrate my birthday next year at GENTING HIGHLANDS! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. THEME PARK!! Gosh. It has been about 10 YEARS since the last time I been to Genting. LOTSA LOTSA FUN AFTER SPM! =D
So yeah. That's the fun part of finishing Form 5. xD. And to all my friends/comrades. Thanks for all of your concern about the thing happened lately to me. I'm doing real fine and I promise, I will NEVER EVER be that down anymore in front of any of you. And I'm sorry if I ever let you guys worried about me, especially for those who saw me emo at Plus 8 last night. xD. So yeah. Buh bye!
Sunday, November 7, 2010
The story of us.
Sometimes I wonder what do you really want from me. You gave me hope and you took them all away at the same freaking time. Did you, no. DO you even care about me in the first place? If you say you do, sorry but I DON'T feel it AT ALL. It just isn't there.
Showing off your boyfriend to me for what? Make me jealous? How FUNNY is that cause I don't feel A THING at all. Did I even say I liked you? Did I even say I give a damn about your damn freaking love life? I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE ANY THOUGHTS ABOUT IT. So how do you expect ME to even TALK to you? You just disgust me.
You think you're pretty. Yes, you are. You think I liked you. Yes, you WERE right. I just don't feel the electric touch anymore when I see your texts and everything. It's just NOT like what it used to be anymore.
So can you PLEASE stop telling me about your boyfriend and how awesome is your love life? I.. just couldn't accept it.. Maybe I still have feelings for you. Maybe I just couldn't let it go. But I KNOW I HAVE TO. You already have a boyfriend. So please. Please leave me alone. You are not the only girl in the world. And I believe I worth a much more better one than your type.
You're a nice girl. And from all your texts, I know your boyfriend is a nice guy, too. I'm glad you have a boyfriend like that, seriously. But if your intention of telling me how great your boyfriend is, is to make me jealous, please stop it. You know I couldn't accept it and you're being unfair to your boyfriend. You may go on with your love life even if it sometimes may hurt me but it doesn't matter. I know this feeling of mine will slowly fade away cause it already is.
So yeah. Thanks for loving me, cause you were doing it perfectly.
Showing off your boyfriend to me for what? Make me jealous? How FUNNY is that cause I don't feel A THING at all. Did I even say I liked you? Did I even say I give a damn about your damn freaking love life? I DIDN'T EVEN HAVE ANY THOUGHTS ABOUT IT. So how do you expect ME to even TALK to you? You just disgust me.
You think you're pretty. Yes, you are. You think I liked you. Yes, you WERE right. I just don't feel the electric touch anymore when I see your texts and everything. It's just NOT like what it used to be anymore.
So can you PLEASE stop telling me about your boyfriend and how awesome is your love life? I.. just couldn't accept it.. Maybe I still have feelings for you. Maybe I just couldn't let it go. But I KNOW I HAVE TO. You already have a boyfriend. So please. Please leave me alone. You are not the only girl in the world. And I believe I worth a much more better one than your type.
You're a nice girl. And from all your texts, I know your boyfriend is a nice guy, too. I'm glad you have a boyfriend like that, seriously. But if your intention of telling me how great your boyfriend is, is to make me jealous, please stop it. You know I couldn't accept it and you're being unfair to your boyfriend. You may go on with your love life even if it sometimes may hurt me but it doesn't matter. I know this feeling of mine will slowly fade away cause it already is.
So yeah. Thanks for loving me, cause you were doing it perfectly.
Saturday, November 6, 2010
Too young to be messed with.
Haiz. This feeling comes back again... How can I overcome it? Tell me, will you?
Dear you.
I.. have nothing to say. Seeing you like this, I'm totally speechless. What can I do? Scold you? Punch you? Advice you? You'll never accept any of these, will you? I just know you way too well.
Asking me to eat shit because someone asking you to do stuff instead of asking me? Did you really think that I wanted to let you handle that kind of stuff? I didn't want to, too, but I had no choice, did I? All you are is mean, which totally makes me think that you're pathetic.
I don't want to care anymore. I don't want to be the one who's always feeling sad anymore. I no longer am the boy who you think you could simply control because of your highly thoughts and elder age.
Someday. Someday you'll be seeing me respected by people because I deserve to. Unlike you.
Asking me to eat shit because someone asking you to do stuff instead of asking me? Did you really think that I wanted to let you handle that kind of stuff? I didn't want to, too, but I had no choice, did I? All you are is mean, which totally makes me think that you're pathetic.
I don't want to care anymore. I don't want to be the one who's always feeling sad anymore. I no longer am the boy who you think you could simply control because of your highly thoughts and elder age.
Someday. Someday you'll be seeing me respected by people because I deserve to. Unlike you.
Wednesday, November 3, 2010
Back to December.
I'm so glad you made time to see me
How's life?
Tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while
You've been good, busier than ever
We small talk, work and the weather
Your guard is up and I know why
Because the last time
You saw me is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses
And I left them there to die
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom, ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realised what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time
These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leaving
When your birthday passed and I didn't call
And I think about summer, all the beautiful time
I watched you laughing from the passenger side
Realised I loved you in the fall
Then the cold came
The dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was
"Goodbye"
So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"
And I go back to December all the time
It turns out freedom, ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I realised what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time
I missed your tanned skin, your sweet smile
So good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry
Maybe this is wishful thinking
Probably mindless dreaming
If we loved again, I swear I'd love you right
I'd go back in time and change it, but I can't
So if the chain is on your door, I understand
But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"
And I'd go back to December
It turns out freedom, ain't nothing but missing you
Wishing that I'd realised what I had when you were mine
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I'd go back to December all the time
All the time
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Never grow up.
Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to
Please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up
Just never grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
I could still be little
Oh, I don't wanna grow up
Wish I'd never grown up
It could still be simple
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
Just stay this little
Oh, darling don't you ever grow up
Don't you ever grow up
It could stay this simple
Won't let nobody hurt you
Won't let no one break your heart
And even though you want to
Please try to never grow up
Oh, don't you ever grow up
Oh, never grow up
Just never grow up
- Never Grow Up,
Taylor Swift
Taylor Swift
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