Rawrr!

AHHHHH. I am so angry at myself now! Why didn't I study earlier? Why didn't I practice more? Why didn't I pay attention when teachers were teaching? Why? Why? WHYYYY????????

YES. Currently I'm struggling for my Add Maths. It's so damn freaking CONFUSING. Other than that, I have to deal with sooooooo many damn freaking things! They're like all come to me AT ONCE. HOW HOW HOW?!?!

NEVERMIND. I shall tell myself over and over again that IT'S OKAY. When life is filled with things and you're forced to deal with all of them, REMEMBER ONE IMPORTANT THING. No matter you're happy or sad, you still have to LIVE YOUR LIFE. So why not live to the fullest and live happily? RIGHT?! BUAHAHAHHA. I sound like a damn ahpek! xD. But it's true. And please don't get me wrong. True as in the facts that I've just mentioned. NOT that it's true that I'm a damn ahpek!

So yeah. Gotta keep on striving and striving to the fullest! DON'T PLAY PLAY WITH ME. I AM CURRENTLY FILLED WITH A REALLY REALLY UNBREAKABLE AND STRONG LIFE FORCE NOW! YOU BETTER BEWARE OF ME. AS I MIGHT CUT YOU INTO PIECES AND EAT YOU ALIVE!

The one that got away.

Should I remove my Chat Box? Since there are so many unwanted/uninvited guests visiting. =.=

GLee.

Glee season 2 is OFFICIALLY OUT! Check out the first episode and I have no idea why is it mirrored. LOL.

Baby tale.

HAHAHAHA. I can't stop laughing. Check it out!

Darren: Hmmm.. The chocolate over there looks good.
Daddy: ............

Darren: Hmmmm.. Which one should I choose? White choc or black choc?
Daddy: Have you decided? I'm falling asleep..

Darren: Alright. Decided! Excuse me. Can you please get me one bar of white choc?
Daddy: Finally decided. *relieved*

Yeap. This is MY Darren boy. Cute ain't he? xD

That's the way I loved you.

Now it's 2.35 in the morning and yeap, I am still here. =D Alright, just a real short update.

I am feeling AWESOME.

C=

Just keep pushing on.

刚才你问我介不介意刚才你对我说的那几句话。顿时，我突然觉得很对不起你。。要问介不介意的人不是你，而是我！妈，你介不介意刚才我对你那不理不睬的态度呢？当时的你，一定很不好受吧。对不起。。

你说得对。钱对我们来说很重要。就算它不是万能，但它可说是九千能。你之所以会对我说那几句话，也只不过不想看着我白白将自己的前途给毁灭掉。刚才在观看《家好月圆》的时候，荷妈说的一句话打动了我。她说：“我们做父母的，看见自己的孩子出了事，我们能怎样呢？难道我们就不想坐下来大哭一场吗？现在我们没时间去胡思乱想，我们更没有资格去哭， 因为他们是我们的孩子。我们绝对不可以崩溃！”。看到这里，我就联想起以前你对我说过的往事。当时虽然家里真的是穷到连买面包都得三思，但是当时的你是多么地坚强，多么地不屈服啊！捱来捱去，现在终于都捱出头了。而我这个做孩子的，却没有尽责到做孩子的责任。。

妈，我答应你。我一定会发奋图强，努力地去读好我的书来的。今年的SPM测验，我一定不会让你失望的！这是我对你的承诺！

Lost in thoughts.

I... am tired.

Can someone hear me?

I am really tired..

of everything.

It was only just a dream.

真是从来都没遇过这么笨蛋的人。人家有说过她喜欢你吗？人家有说过她想你吗？没有！根本就只有你自己一厢情愿吧了。好啦，现在搞到自己伤心啦，自己压抑不住心情啦。能怪的了谁？你！要怪就只能怪你这个自以为是的大白痴！谁叫你一天到晚都以为人家会喜欢你？屁啦！从来都没见过这么臭美的人！还臭美到随随便便就叫人家babeyy。你以为一句babeyy就是在搞暧昧啊？一句babeyy就是代表她接收你啊？别做梦啦你！省点吧你！

考试就快到了。好心你就快快收拾心情去读书吧！别再发白日梦了！

Stefani Germanotta.

I got mesmerised by this awesome desktop wallpaper.

Ain't she BEAUTIFUL?
And no, this ain't Christina Aguilera.

This is what I thought about.

You were in college, working part time waiting tables

Left a small town, never looked back

I was a flight risk, with a fear of falling

Wondering why we bother with love, if it never lasts

Say, can you believe it?

As we're lying on the couch

The moment, I can see it

Yes, yes, I can see it now

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water

You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Flash forward and we're taking on the world together

And there's a drawer of my things at your place

You learned my secrets and you figured out why I'm guarded

You said we'll never make my parent's mistakes

But we got bills to pay

We got nothing figured out

When it was hard to take

Yes, yes, this is what I thought about

Do you remember we were sitting there by the water
You put your arm around me for the first time
You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter
You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you remember all the city lights on the water

You saw me start to believe for the first time

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

And I remember that fight, two thirty AM

Yes, everything was slipping right out of our hands
I ran out crying and you followed me out into the street

Braced myself for the goodbye

'Cause this is all I've ever known

And you took me by surprise

You said, I'll never leave you alone

You said, I remember how we felt sitting by the water

And everytime I look at you, it's like the first time
I fell in love with a careless man's careful daughter

She is the best thing that's ever been mine

You made a rebel of a careless man's careful daughter

You are the best thing that's ever been mine

Do you believe it?
Gonna make it now
I can see it
See it now

- Mine,

Taylor Swift

We've got nothing figured out.

I really want to blog today. I really do. But I just can't seem to find a topic to talk about. There are so much incidents happened lately which made me felt totally down and that is one of the reasons why I can't seem to cheer myself up.

I always wanted to be the special one. I always wanted to be the one people would look up to. After getting what I've always wanted all this while, I realise this desire of mine is not something that I can afford to have. People start paying attention to me. People start having high expectation from me and it's not something that I can always maintain with.

People may think that I'm an arrogant person, because of those school and society posts that I have to deal with and yes, I'm afraid of losing them all. People envy of me, some might even jealous of me. I didn't really care what people think of me but now, I mind, even though I might don't voice out anything about it. I start to hate, no, I detest the glaring-look of people around me.

Guess that I just need to keep everything to myself and lock them all up. I have no one that I can talk to, as I don't really want people start questioning me about this. I'm sick of this moment of my life.

Anyway, once you see this, that's it. It will be kept in here and I hope I don't see people talking about it in front of me. Please and thank you.

Cutest baby boy.

This is my baby boy, Darren Foo Guo Wei.

He does many many things which made me thinks that he is the cutest baby ever that I have ever seen in my entire lifetime:

1) He SMILES when the mama scolds him.
2) He BABY-TALKS to himself every morning when he wakes up.
3) He DANCES when he hears we singing The Barney Song.
4) He BOOS with his saliva when he is bored.
5) He CRAWLS all the time even when he is in the car.
6) He TOSSES his pacifier when he wants to eat.
7) He POINTS at his mama when he wants her to carry him.
8) He TIP-TOES when he stands.
9) He MAKES funny emotion when he tastes something cold.
10) He WANTS me to carry him some of the time. =D


And THIS, is the photo that I'm obsessed with.

I LOVE YOU, DARREN BOY!

We together are one.

Actually, I don't want to post anything today wan.. But since there are soooooo many people out there want me to blog SOOOOOOO BADLY, okay la okay la, I'll blog for the sake of those people. You KNOW who you are. =)

Alright, today. I'll talk about our country, since there are people who don't appreciate it. Alright people. Let me ask you people one simple question. Do you know where you're come from? Australia? America? Africa? New Zealand? NO. YOU'RE FROM MALAYSIA.

And what's all about this racism happening recently? Alright, talk about the most recent one. Siti Insyah. YES. She DID humiliate us. She DID ask us to go back to China. But before she did all this, what were WE doing? We ATE in front of them. And do you define this as RESPECT? DID WE ever respect them at the first place? WE DID NOT.

And yes. What she did was, well, over the limit. But can you people please use your brains to think PROPERLY before you do something? IF WE keep on complaining about this incident, do you think racism will ever be STOPPED? HELL NO. It will just get WORSE. Yes, sometimes there are people out there who are very racist, there are people out there who don't RESPECT other races. BUT if we try to change our point of view FIRST, do you think the racism will still continue?

Try to change your angle in seeing things. Look at the good and fine sides. Our country is full of our OWN unique culture which OTHER COUNTRIES don't. Have you seen ANY country with Roti Canai, Nasi Lemak and Char Siew Pau under the SAME roof before? Have you seen ANY country with DIFFERENT races before? NO. ONLY US. ONLY MALAYSIA. Even we have our OWN country jokes. "What is the stingiest animal?" "It's HORSE! Cause when it runs, it will make sounds like KEDEKUT KEDEKUT KEDEKUT".

SO PEOPLE. START loving our country more! It's UNIQUE and it's IRREPLACEABLE. Start to respect others FIRST so the other people will respect you. BEAR THIS IN YOUR MIND DEEPLY if you don't want to see news like people whacking a person who's a different race from theirs.

You knew that I was free.

Now my mood is just like this song.

Yes. It's Telephone. I'd rather dance, sing, or do other stuff than picking up your phone! So, STOP CALLING ME CAUSE I DON'T WANNA THINK OR TALK ANYMORE.

Everybody loves Taylor.

This video starts a fire in me, somehow. Kanye West disses Taylor Swift in VMA's Award. You gotta watch this and I'm sorry that the quality of this video sucks. I tried searching for better quality ones but this is the best that I could give.

How do you feel? Angry? Yes, I am. Even though this incident happened last year, the anger just starts stirring in me. And thank god that there were people out there who actually voiced out about it. This is what Kelly Clarkson posted in her official blog:

Dear Kanye,

What happened to you as a child?? Did you not get hugged enough?? Something must have happened to make you this way and I think we’re all just curious as to what would make a grown man go on national television and make a talented artist, let alone teenager, feel like shit. I mean, I’ve seen you do some pretty shitty things, but you just keep amazing me with your tactless, asshole ways. It’s absolutely fascinating how much I don’t like you. I like everyone. I even like my asshole ex that cheated on me over you…which is pretty odd since I don’t even personally know you. The best part of this evening is that you weren’t even up for THIS award and yet you still have a problem with the outcome. Is winning a moon man that much of a life goal?? You can have mine if it will shut you up. Is it that important, really??

I was actually nominated in the same category that Taylor won and I was excited for her…so why can’t you be?? I’m not even mad at you for being an asshole…I just pity you because you’re a sad human being.

On a side note, Beyonce has always been a class act and proved again tonight that she still is. Go TEXAS!!

Taylor Swift, you outsell him ….that’s why he’s bitter. You know I love your work! Keep it up girl!

KC

Way to go, Kelly! =D. And the funny part about this incident was, Katy Perry even posted THIS in her Twitter:

"FUCK YOU, KANYE."

LOL. That's the reason why I don't like listening to black people's music, especially that bastard Kanye's. Anyway, the name "Kanye" somehow makes me think of Kentucky Fried Chicken. xD

Turn around, bright eyes.

There's nothing I can do,

A total eclipse of the heart.

This Ferris wheel's got me crazy.

Last time, I thought we had this talk
Boy, you were getting ready to leave
I thought that baby you were done
'Cause for a while, you could barely look at me

This time, I thought that we'd be fine
That I'd forget the things that you said
I tried crossing out your words
But baby you cannot forget the past
Cannot forget the past
Still, baby

I'm so unpredictable
You don't know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I'm even still in love, you see
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder, this second time around
I'm so unpredictable
Just like you used to be
So unemotional
Boy, I can't forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder, this second time around
This second time around

We tried going back to Joe's
That always was our favourite place
Long rides, baby by the coast
Do you remember where we stayed?
Last time, we were hanging out
You were acting kind of strange
Now it's the second time around
I'm sorry, now it's me that feels this way
(My heart just speaks to me)
It's me that feels this way
I know you are the one that is brave

I'm so unpredictable
You don't know what to think
So unemotional
Wonder if I'm even still in love, you see
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder, this second time around
I'm so unpredictable
Just like you used to be
So unemotional
Boy, I can't forget the way you were with me
I don't know what to tell you now
It's always harder, this second time around

I'm not sure the best of way to say this
But I can't pretend to love you no more, babe
This Ferris wheel's got me crazy
Maybe the second time around is not meant for us, baby
Not meant for us, baby

I'm so unpredictable

You don't know what to think

So unemotional

Wonder if I'm even still in love, you see

I don't know what to tell you now

It's always harder, this second time around

I'm so unpredictable

Just like you used to be

So unemotional

Boy, I can't forget the way you were with me

I don't know what to tell you now

It's always harder, this second time around

I'm so unpredictable

You don't know what to think

So unemotional

Wonder if I'm even still in love, you see

I don't know what to tell you now

It's always harder, this second time around

I'm so unpredictable

Just like you used to be

So unemotional

Boy, I can't forget the way you were with me

I don't know what to tell you now

It's always harder, this second time around
This second time around

- Second Time Around,

Lady GaGa

Confession of a broken heart.

I don't know what the hell do you really want. Can you please TELL ME? Instead of SHOWING ME THAT SHIT FACE OF YOURS?! That look really irritates me and I'm fucking sick of looking at it.

You don't like me fetching my friends back? Fine. JUST SPILL OUT THE WORDS LA GODDAMNIT! MUST YOU ALWAYS GIVE ME THAT FUCKING LOOK?! You think that spilling out the words will hurt my feelings? Well, let me tell you this. THAT FUCKING LOOK OF YOURS IS EVEN MORE EFFECTIVE IN HURTING MY FEELINGS!!

And gosh. You always wanted me to go to tuition SO BADLY. I DON'T KNOW WHAT THE HECK IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD ABOUT TUITION. Or are you thinking that going tuition will guarantee me an A? Well, I can actually tell you that, NO. It DEFINITELY WON'T bring me an A. The A will come to me ONLY IF I put my effort in achieving it. And do you think that going tuition will make me achieve it more easily? NO. It will make me sick, as I NEED A LIFE. Do you expect me to attend for tuition class right after the 6/7 hours of schooling? Even if I can cope up with it, do you think that I WON'T FALL ASLEEP IN THAT DAMN FREAKING 3 HOURS TUITION CLASS?

I'm not trying to rebel or something. I just WANT TO LET YOU KNOW. That I DO CARE about my studies. I may look lazy. And maybe sometimes I don't even bother about my exams. But I can tell you that, I CARE ABOUT MY FUTURE. What do you think that the study group that me and my friends recently held was all about? IT WAS ALL ABOUT STUDIES. But I'm sure this will take you a century to understand, right? So, what I'm saying in here is just all craps and bullshits.