Judas's lover.

This is my new desktop wallpaper.


My mom saw this and she was like, "Is this Lady Gaga? Why does she look so scary?". And I was like, "...........". But true also la. She looks kinda scary here. But, who cares? =P

He ain't heavy, he's my bro.

GOSH! I am FINALLY able to sign in to my Blogger! Last few days been trying so hard to sign in but it said my account was not verified. =.= Blah, who cares. As long as I can sign in NOW. Hahahahaha!

For your information, I am supposed to study now because I've made a promise to myself that I will start studying today. But today, unfortunately, I was trying to sign in to my Blogger and I THOUGHT that I wouldn't be able to sign in as well. But it ended up... you know. LOL. That's why I'm here! And I can tell that this is going to be a long one. =P

Form 6 has been a blessing. I found out that I've been using the same sentence for 3 times for my blog. LOL. But anyway, yea. Who the hell told me that Form 6 is suffering?! Lol. Maybe it's because it has just started and I'm still in holiday mood. WHAT? Can't really blame me la. It's holiday what. It's a damn freaking 2-week holiday ya know? RELAX~~ No need to study first. Relax for the first week and start working your ass off on the second week. HAHAHAH! I know that I'm a procrastinator. Can't help it. =P

Then, the subjects that I'm taking are Ekonomi, Sejarah, Bahasa Malaysia, MUET and Pengajian Am. At first when I heard that this school only offers Ekonomi, Sejarah and Bahasa Malaysia for arts class, I was thinking of transferring or having tuition outside, because I seriously CAN'T take Sejarah. Furthermore, the teachers here said that Sejarah is COMPULSORY for this school. So, I evetually thought of leaving this school. But then, fate has brought me here. LOL. Ahh, Imma cut the crap. Lol. I attended Sejarah classes, just for trial and I found out that, EH! SEJARAH IS ACTUALLY NOT THAT BAD WEI! *For now la.* LOL! I hope Cikgu Ng won't scold me for that. xD Then, I think that I'm slowly in love with Sejarah. Crazy, ain't it? LOL.

Okla, that's for the subjects. Next, will be my super duper lame + perasan + hamsap bro. Hahahaha! Don't scold me for that. LOL. What can I say about him? He's big sized. He has wide forehead. He has super short spiky hair. And... he's lame. LOL. Bro, don't take this as an insult cause I do like lamers. LOL! In fact, he's the one who asked me to write something about him on my blog. LOL! So I'm here, talking about you. Hahaha. I think I'll just cut the crap for now.

You know what? I never thought that we could get along this well, you know? At first, I couldn't really open myself to you. But as time goes by, I found out that you are the one that I can trust and the one that I can run to when I have problems. It's not that I don't have anyone to run to. It's just that, everything just happened way too perfectly and at the same time, way too fast. You'll be transferring school soon. After knowing you for less than a month, I honestly don't really want you to transfer, deep inside of me. Even though I told you that we'll still get to talk to each other, just that it will not be that often, but still, it's hard to let go. I don't know why am I saying this out of a sudden. Maybe it's because we have a lot in common and I want you to know about this. Or maybe it's because I have already acknowledged you as my brother, a brother who shares the same blood. After all this while, I just wanted you to know that no matter where you go, you can still run to me when you have problems, just like before. You told me a lot about your stuff, which I never expected from you because how long have you known me? 10 years? 5 years? Not even a month you've known me but still, you trusted me like you've known me for more than 10 years. Thanks for telling me what you have told me in this past 3 weeks. I appreciate them a lot. Like real a lot. Remember, when you're in a different school, must work hard and study hard for your future. Your mom needs you. Your family needs you. Therefore, you can't tumble down. Must be strong! So that your mom can rely on you, alright? And I'm so looking forward to this Thursday's outing! It feels like it's been ages since I last watched movie. In fact, it's been like what? 4 months? 5 months? And I'm dying to watch movie! ARGHH!

Damn. It's already 9.45pm. What has happened to the-lately-me who was filled with so much passion and determination in studying?! Look at the pathetic me. I'm officially SLACKING, right here, right NOW! ARGH!! I guess I'll just start working my ass off tomorrow morning! I swear! NO MORE PROCRASTINATION! IF YOU EVER SEE ME ONLINE-ING OR WATCHING NARUTO, JUST SLAP/WHACK/PUNCH/PINCH/BITE/SQUEEZE/HIT ME. I am giving you this golden opportunity to do this. *If you ever find me slacking la.* =P Okla, I need to go downstairs already. Must observe what my sister is doing now. If she's watching TV, ngek ngek, she'll get it from me. Oh wait. I'm slacking as well. So I cannot scold her. Like what the Malay says, seperti ketam mengajar anaknya berjalan, something like that. LOL! Okla okla. I must go already. See ya when I have the mood to blog again. And so sorry for the super duper long post. =P BYE!

The glory that I bare.

Hello peeps. Miss me? I'm sure you do as I've been M.I.A-ing for don't know how many days. Hahahaha. But anyway, I'm here just for a short update for those people out there who want me to blog soooooooo badly. =P

Alright. Form 6 is tough. But it's worth my time and I'm very sure of that. People do tell me lots of stuff like Form 6 is a waste of time and it's very hard or stuff like that. To me, it depends on individual, whether you label it as 'hard', 'waste of time' or 'easy', 'worth my time'. That's all I can say. I'm happy to be in Form 6.

Ohya, before I forget. Just wanted to wish my new friend, whom I called him as 'Bro', Happy Birthday. You are a great friend and a great child to your parents. Thanks for telling so much stuff about you and I appreciate them a lot. And the common things between us, are just way too much and they somehow creep me. But never mind that, as we said, we are already used to it. Hahahahaha. Alright. Even though you'll be transferring, but bros will always remain as bros. Nothing changes, alright? Don't be so sad and emo. Cheer up! =D

That's all for today and needless to say, I'm exhausted and I need some sleep now. Goodnight, peeps! =D

GagaVille.

GagaVille has ARRIVED! It has some Gaga-looking sheeps and unicorn in that ville. Hahahahha. And I got to listen to Gaga's unreleased song, MARRY THE NIGHT! Sounded so so only. Not as good as Judas. =P

So lazy to update now. Hai gam sin. Bye~

Failure.

While looking at my sister sleeping, I suddenly felt so bad. Random. LOL. She's just too tired. Not just physically, but also mentally.

Everyday I've been forcing her to do this and that, not allowing her to do this and that, giving her pressure. All I wanted to see was just seeing her growing up to become a better person. I guess this is what a brother always wants their little siblings to become. But I guess I was wrong. The method I used was just too harsh for a little kid like her.

I always ask her to shower right after she comes back from school, never considering whether she's sleeping on the sofa due to the whole day of schooling or not. I always ask her to finish her homework before the night comes, never considering whether she knows how to do or not. I always scold her for not paying attention to me while I was teaching, never considering that she's so tired from waking up 6 in the morning and stayed awake till the rest of the day. I always blame her for not respecting my parents, never considering myself behave like her. I always expect a lot of things out of her, never considering my expectations were too high for a 10 year old kid. I never even consider whether was I doing the right thing or not, because I always thought that I was right.

But just now, seeing her snoring in the room, I had an urge to cry. Sorry for being so emotional out of a sudden, but I just can't help feeling that I failed to become a good brother, a good elder brother who leads his little sibling to the right way. My parents always told me that, "Don't be so harsh on your little sister la, she's so young. When you were young, you were even worse!" and I surely would fight back with words like, "This is the reason why she disrespects you people except me!". But I guess I was wrong. My sister did not respect me, she FEARED me. She's afraid of being scolded, scared of being pressured by me. That is the reason why she did everything just to obey me. I felt that myself is so bossy.

All I wanted to see was just she, being able to grow up to be a good girl. But as I said, my methods were way out of the line. I shouldn't be so harsh on her. I guess.

Hanging on a moment of truth.

Wanted to blog yesterday but blogger had some problems and I wasn't able to sign in. But never mind that.

As I mentioned in the previous post, Form 6 has been a blessing. I eventually love the school, the classmates, even though I'm not that familiar with them YET, I have a feeling that they'll be a bunch of cool friends. =D. Then next thing about Ken Chia. Don't know whether it's the correct spelling or not. But once again, never mind that. LOL. I was surprised that he told us about his ambition and why did he choose to become what he wants to be in his future. I was very impressed by him, by his words, by his thoughts and his heart. Like what Thomas said, he has a heart of contributing to the society and I was really overwhelmed by that. He is one of the reasons why I join PSS cause he is the Head Prefect of PSS. A person I would look up to, a person I would be proud of, that is the thing I've longed to look for and I think I've finally found the right person. But of course, other reason why joining PSS is also because of the 10% co-curriculum marks. xD

And now, life will be very busy. Schooling and Gakkai. I was very depressed and sad when I heard people saying that they're tired and therefore they skip Gakkai activities. I know it's okay to take a break. But we must know why we want to take a break. Is it for the sake of tiredness? Or is it for the sake of laziness? Or perhaps for the sake of tiredness of tired? After I shifted house and started to have my Gakkai activities here, I realised that I was really shallow, in terms of faith. I need to be strong here. I need to be tough here. The youths here are all lacking of passion and faith and it's very saddening. Therefore, I've learned that I, myself must be the one who motivates them, who takes the lead, who influences others so that the future leaders will be cultivated with compassion. And in order to achieve that, I must be strong in faith by not absenting on any Gakkai activities, as few as possible.

I've learned so much here and I need the people around me to realise this, too. Gakkai isn't about ourselves. It's about the whole organization and it's not easy to keep this organization on the right track. Therefore, we must be bold enough to achieve that. Be true to yourself, don't attend any meetings because you're asked to do so because in the end, you won't be getting any benefit cause you're being forced to. Attend meetings happily and willingly. That is the seed of spirit and it will eventually grow into trees.

I'm on the edge of glory.

Form 6 has been a bless! I love my new school, my new seniors and the environment. Seriously, I'm sure this is the kind of school that I want and I'm so glad I finally found it! =D

Anyway, just a short update as I better get to my bed ASAP cause I have to wake up at 5.30a.m every single morning. =(. But worth it la. =)

Ohya, one more thing, GAGAVILLE IS COMING SOON! HERE IT IS:

HAHAHA. I seriously don't know how it's going to be like. I wonder do they have Gaga-costumes for my farmer. Or maybe we'll get to adopt little monsters and feed them with milk and grow into adult monsters. LOL!

Alright, that's all. Bye!

To Mum, With Love.

A betrayal of a prophecy.

I don't quite get the concept behind the video.

What do you say?

You, inescapable.

Hello peeps! So long never blog already. Hahahaha. Guess this will be just a short update.

I am so so so happy and glad now! Because I finally see someone in my Phoenix chants! Not that they all don't chant, but this is just the exception one cause I never thought he would actually be the one. I am just so so happy to see this! Lim Yoong Hui! BRAVO! And he told me he started to chant since last month and he was unsatisfied with it cause he only started to chant 2 years after he became a member. When I heard he saying this, I was so so so so HAPPY AND OVERWHELMED! A heart that pursues a higher and deeper desire, this is the spirit! And I am just so surprised that he is the one!

Lim Yoong Hui, now you're in the palm of our hands now! Ngek ngek ngek.. I will tell this to Wee Leng and you surely won't be able to escape from joining this year's GFG Camp cause Wee Leng is a persistent fella! *Don't kill me if you see this, Wee Leng* xD! Hahahaha. Alright, I am so happy now and I hope I'll be able to get some sleep tonight.

Goodnight, PEEPS! =D