Give yourself prudence and love your friends.

I'm here to say, I have the most kick-ass best friends ever! Thank you so much for your encouragements and concern about my studies, LIEW TONG SENG AND TANG ZO EE! Love die you two. xD

Entrusting a dream.

Gosh. How long have I not been blogging? 3 days? 5 days? LOL! I promised myself that I will blog every single day since I started blogging but mana tau it ended up... xD! Well, at first I really did so. But when the days drag on, sorry my readers, I no longer have the mood to do so. xD But anyway, I'm here today because.. I'm in the mood, as simple as that. LOL! Today went to course counselling in PJ Centre and it somehow lights the light bulb in me. What am I gonna do after finishing Form 6? What career am I interested in? What path am I gonna choose when the time comes? There were so many questions running through my head at that very moment and I was confused, naturally. But then, after hearing all the courses and experiences and all that stuff, a tiny little part within my heart, somehow thinks that going SUJ or SUA would be the thing that I've wanted all this while. I don't know why I was thinking that because seriously, I NEVER thought of going overseas to further my studies. Firstly it's because of its super duper expensive COST! Secondly it's because I'm afraid of being alone. Without family's support, whether in financial or mentally, or just make it simple, IN EVERY SINGLE WAY, I just don't find the courage to do so. I might need to survive on my own if I were to go overseas. But anyhow, this tiny thought of mine is still being kept in my mind and I really hope that I will be able to go, even though I'm not well prepared YET. Because as a Soka Gakkai member, I think I have the mission to prove that our philosophy of Nichiren Daishonin's teachings will be the most correct way of Buddhism. And in order to achieve that, I somehow think that the only solution is to further my studies in either SUJ or SUA so that I will be able to know even MORE about our SGI organization. Besides that, I have already made up my mind to go to Form 6, as I mentioned earlier. After attending today's course counselling, I eventually set up my goals. I made a vow to myself that NO MATTER HOW, I must must must get 4.0 in my STPM. Yes, I put my target to the highest point and in order to achieve that, I will put 200% in studying my Form 6! Because if I achieve that, I will be able to further my studies in SUJ or SUA without worrying about the cost as I will be able to get full scholarship. So then, JASON SIOW SHI YUAN! GAMBATEH!!!!!

I got through this.

Hello people. I'm actually not in the mood of blogging now, since my Naruto Shippuuden is still waiting for me. But anyhow, I just need to tell my friends who really really care about me that, I am now okay.

Life is filled with sorrows and despair and sometimes we get too upset about it and that we forget that there are people out there who encounter an even worse scenario than ours. Who are we to be tumbling down when those people out there are trying so hard just to survive? Who are we to judge that we are the saddest human being in the whole wide world when there are people out there who can't even have a proper meal?

Therefore, my friend. I've learned my lesson well. Sometimes people may be hard on you, but these are the people who actually make you stronger inside.

Thanks Mum. You are the reason why I'm writing this. You're irreplaceable and I love you so much.

The song that sings my heart out.

What have I done?
I wish I could run
Away from this ship going under
Just trying to help
Hurt everyone else
Now I feel the weight of the world is on my shoulders

What can I do when my good isn't good enough?
And all that I touch tumbles down
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Ohh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?
To get it right

Can I start again with my faith shaken?
'Cause I can't go back and undo this
I just have to stay and face my mistakes
But if I get stronger and wiser, I'll get through this

What can I do when my good isn't good enough?
And all that I touch tumbles down
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Ohh, how many times will it take for me to get it right?

So I throw up my fists
Throw a punch in the air
And accept the truth that sometimes life isn't fair
Yeah, I'll send down a wish and I'll send up a prayer
And finally, someone will see how much I care

What can I do when my good isn't good enough?
And all that I touch tumbles down
'Cause my best intentions keep making a mess of things
I just wanna fix it somehow
But how many times will it take?
Ohh, how many times will it take to get it right?
To get it right

- Get It Right,
Lea Michele

I wish I could run.

All I wanted to hear from you was, "I know you did your best, it's okay!" or "I am proud of you!". But, I guess my expectation from you was a little too high. Sometimes I just want you to be just like Dad. What he said was only "I'm satisfied with your performance" with a smiling face and that really made me feel so happy and belonged. But instead, all I heard from you was comparison between me and my friends. I am so upset about this.

A little comparison makes us keep on improving ourselves, I know that. But everytime I just couldn't be as good as what my friend is. Maybe I didn't really put much effort in it. Maybe I didn't care much. But I really did my best, isn't that good enough? I'm sorry but this is the best I could give. Sorry if I didn't meet your expectation.

I am just so tired of this now. Don't even feel like talking about it. It eventually deepens the wound in my heart.

Keep on dancing till the world ends.

Sorry for the lack of updating, I was just so lazy as my current life revolves around Naruto a little too much. Naruto. Hmm. It's actually not bad and I'm done watching Naruto. Just started the 1st episode of Naruto Shippuuden, which talks about the grown up Naruto. But anyway, it's just awesome. =)

I'll be getting my SPM result in 12 hours' time. I'm starting to get a little nervous now, surprisingly and suddenly. I thought I won't be feeling a thing about it but it eventually turns out this way. Does this mean I'm not prepared? @@

Sherry Vine the Entertainer.

I was searching for some videos in YouTube and I came across these parody videos of Lady Gaga from Sherry Vine:

Shit My Pants a.k.a Bad Romance




Make Me Moan a.k.a Telephone

You're A Homo a.k.a Alejandro

More This Way a.k.a Born This Way

Last but not least, one from Katy Perry,

Firecrotch a.k.a Firework

(I LOL-ed the most in this)

These videos surely made your day, didn't they? ;)